She would have been 92 this year. Honestly, I thought she would reach 100.
I saw that a cousin posted a photo of her on her Facebook saying that she was in the hospital. Then there were calls trying to reach my dad. I told my dad to check his phone. When I saw him again as I was going to eat dinner, he informed me that she passed away. My mom explained that grandma was in the hospital last night complaining of chest pains. She ended up having a blood clot. Today between 7-8PM, she passed away.
I actually couldn't eat. I just went back upstairs to my room and cried as I was thinking about her. Soon after, I checked my harddrives to specifically watch video clips I had taken during her 90th birthday. It was very heartwarming, but hurt to watch. Seeing our family laughing and with smiles around her, seeing her with 7 of her 8 children, seeing her with her grandchildren. At that point, she lived to see 4 generations under her. I don't know if she ever met her great great granddaughter though. I hope she did.
Slowly, my cousins started posting photos of her on their Facebook. They changed their profile photos and cover images to her. In that same vein, I wanted to post a video of her, but I couldn't. I think I'll just leave the videos most likely for her funeral. I can find all the clips I have of her and have the whole family around watching together. I don't know. We'll see. I just feel that those moments are just for us to remember her.
This was a day I did not look forward to. We all have our day when we will pass, but she was still living a great life and visiting her family all over the world. She was also my last living grandparent. I never met either of my grandfathers as they passed before I was born. My mom's mom passed away over 10 years ago when I was still in high school. That was rough as well. This one hurts more. I hated thinking about it, but I knew that when this day were to come that her funeral would be one of the saddest days of my life.
I also knew this would be the one time I'd see my dad not all together. It really hurt to see my dad not knowing what to do. He walked around a bit and was trying to figure out what to do next. He already asked if I could go with him to where she passed, in New Mexico. Once a plan is figured out, I'll do whatever needs to be done. And I know he's not big on showing sad emotions so all I could do was offer my arm around his shoulder. I saw him later outside digging and taking care of his plants and it brought tears to my eyes. I really admire his strength. It was also difficult not to cry in front of him myself since talking or asking about it brought the tears out. I also became a facilitator of calls as family was trying to contact him, but only had my number. I could listen in on some of the conversations between him and his siblings. They're all really strong. Grandma was definitely proud of each one of them.
There was only one thing I ever wanted for her and unfortunately it can never happen now. I wanted her to be there when I finally got married. Anytime we were together for family events, she always asked if I had a girlfriend and that she wanted more great grand kids. I'm sorry that I couldn't do that for you, Grandma Gina. The only thing I can do for you now is find someone I know you'll be proud of and a woman that makes me happy.
You were loved by so many and you loved us all in return. If we could all be happy and lead amazing lives like you did, we'd be lucky. Thank you for everything you ever did for us. Rest In Peace, Lola. I miss you and I love you, Grandma Gina.
Saturday, July 19, 2014
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
June 2014 Entry
June. June was very memorable.
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- I know I didn't talk about work last month. There wasn't
anything to report. I did mention the 3 month notice I put in. That 3 months
has passed and I'm still there. I've been there for a year now. As much as I
wanted to quit, it would have been an idiotic decision to do so since I
couldn't find work elsewhere. I did not want to repeat history that happened
3-4 years ago when I first left. It cost me a lot.
- A fishing trip was planned at least a month or two ago to
happen on the 7th. The plan got cancelled due to being the main planner getting
sick. He fortunately got better and the fishing plan continued, but it was only
him and myself just like last year.
We went out farther than usual. While I still wasn't able to
catch a fish, I did catch 9 crabs. 210 minutes out there, we caught 13 crabs
and my friend caught one catfish. On the ferry ride back, we actually
played 4 Swords and Steel Diver Sub Wars
on our 3DSs. Both were fun and we were both surprised with how much we got into
Steel Diver. Unfortunately, we got caught in traffic on the way back, but that
led to tons of catching up and silly conversations including talk about having
to pee in a bottle while on the road, ha.
- Another friend and I had been trying to catch up with each
other for a long time now and it finally happened on the 11th. We planned to
eat at Zushi, but they were mysteriously closed. So we went to Nori (had not
been there since her birthday a few years ago). We caught up and talked a lot
about doing a Roast and mine in particular.
Then we went to her place to play games on the Wii U. First
time we actually played games together. After she made her own Mii, we played
Super Mario 3D World, Spin The Bottle: Bumpie's Party, and Nintendo Land.
Good fun. She has huge dogs, ha.
- Met up with another friend on the 17th. She suggested Fat
Bao (never been there before, very good food). Of course we caught up as usual
and then we continued talking at Bite Macaron (first time for her being there).
I was hoping my friend that owns the place would be there, but she wasn't. She
and I still need to catch up.
- I was invited to a pre-screening of Transformers 4: Age of
Extinction on the 25th. Wasn't planning to see it, but it was free. Met up with one of my
dear friends and he and I finally got to have a talk session we'd been wanting
to have for weeks. It really felt good. That talk continued on the car ride. We
met our third party member at the theater around 5 and got to our place in line
and waited. More talking occurred and we got our free passes close to 6. They
let us into the theater at 7. Transformers then started at 7:30. The movie
ended at 10.
As soon as the credits rolled, my friend whispered
"let's get out of here." Yeah, we three did not enjoy the movie. As I
tweeted out, Transformers 4 was not great. Some good parts, but a lot of
unnecessary scenes and about an hour too long. Glad I didn't have to pay for
it. Jeff Canata (formerly of The Totally Rad Show) did not like the movie as
well.
- Caught up with another friend on the 27th over pizza and a
puzzle. I tried getting her to come out to dinner earlier in the week, but she
couldn't. But this was a good talk. I sucked at the puzzle, but the long talk
(until 2AM) was a great.
- 2 WWE PPVs this month. Payback was fun and Money In The
Bank was crazy. Reading stuff online in regards to wrestling, I feel like I'm
watching a different product from them. Maybe I just don't complain that much.
Yes, the wrestling business isn't perfect and it could be better, but I still
enjoy it. If you don't or haven't for a long time, just stop watching.
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- I recently posted on my WingedVoX Facebook page that I'll
be toning down on what I share on it. Basically, the content I've been posting
there has drastically decreased. Instead of posting all the gaming related
articles I'm interested, I'm mainly posting stuff I have to actually write
about (reviews, Miiverse, etc). I'll still share some videos and articles from
others, but just not as frequently. I will still retweet everything gaming
related I like though. The analytics do look way better, but the participation
and activity is still low. Still haven't reached 100 Likes since starting the
page in 2012.
- E3 2014 was exciting. There's too much to mention, but all
3 big companies did great. If I were to rank them...Sony last, Microsoft
second, and Nintendo first (because I'm biased). I only added a few games to my
to-buy list, but I'm excited for more fun games.
- My RetroN 5 was finally delivered from Amazon. I was lucky
to get in on the pre-orders in January. I took a lot of photos and posted my thoughts
about it. Click the proceeding link to see if it's worth it for you.
- Imported Namco X Capcom for collection purposes. I really enjoyed Project X Zone and was always hoping that Namco X Capcom would come stateside, but it never did. But I at least now own a copy of it.
- Every Street Fighter fan should watch Street Fighter:
Assassin's Fist. Everything (except the subtitles) was done tremendously well.
I do hope they continue it or maybe do a new series based on other characters
from the Street Fighter universe.
- Mega May ended last month and you read how psyched I was
about it. I got around to playing the final offer, Mega Man Xtreme 2. That was
a tough one. It was very good though. I just couldn't complete it in a few
hours like I did the others (took a couple days).
- Mario Kart 8 (Wii U) - Review
I played a lot of Mario Kart 8. It actually hurt because I
would hold the accelerator button down hard (didn't have to) for a long time. I
did almost everything in that game. I got 3 Stars on all cups (the last few
took a lot of tries). I did not get all the gold pieces or all the custom
vehicle parts and I did not get all the stamps from beating all the Time Trial
staff ghosts.
I did participate in 2 GameXplain world wide tournaments.
Those were tough. Even though I got 116 and 123 coins at the end of 16 races, I
was only around the halfway mark in the rankings. It was fun though. Same with
playing with others online. Other than that, I think I'm done with the game.
Took it out of the Wii U the day after the latest tournament.
Check out the highlight videos I uploaded from playing the
game.
- It happened. I finally played Spin The Bottle: Bumpie's
Party. I mentioned it above that I played it with a friend. She actually wanted
to play it not knowing what it was, ha. I will say, it definitely is silly/awkward
like videos have shown. We were stupified and giggling a lot while playing. I
definitely want to play it again with more people.
- Wii Sports Club released Baseball and Boxing. And they
offered free passes to play everything so I got to try Golf. Golf is way harder
now. The Motion Plus means you need to be incredibly accurate with it, which I
couldn't get a grasp on. Boxing works fine although you need to be super
accurate as well if you're going to box online against others. Baseball is the
best offline and online. That's my favorite out of the three. Tennis is
probably the easiest for anyone to play while Bowling is still fun.
I did find out that the gyroscopes on my newer Wiimotes go
off sync a lot. My older Wiimotes with the Motion Plus attached to them work
way better.
- The free game I downloaded thanks to Mario Kart 8 was
Pikmin 3. I started playing it on the 18th and beat it on the 29th. My first
Pikmin game (not counting Nintendo
Land or using Olimar in
Brawl) and I thoroughly enjoyed it. There was a lot of charm and challenge and
the game was amazingly gorgeous. That timer, man...that definitely adds to the
challenge and that's the only issue I had with the game, which isn't even that
bad. I think I'll be buying future Pikmin games from now on.
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A friend threw together a Teacher Karaoke party on the 12th.
I didn't expect much from it other than just a fun karaoke gathering on a
Thursday night. To my surprise, I was reunited with a friend I had not seen in
12-14 years. When my friend was introducing everyone to her, she stared at me
and said "I think I know you" or "you look familiar." Yeah,
we did know each other.
So other than singing, she and I were mainly catching up. It
got to the point where she was hungry so we decided to bounce and leave karaoke
early. A quick stop at HEB to get something for her ailing foot and then we
went to House of Pies to eat and talk more. We actually established whether we
were going to date or not that first night. The answer, no. It's okay. It was
great catching up and realizing that while we've both gone through a lot in the
12-14 years of not seeing each other, we were back to how we were, instantly
clicking. We reminisced a lot, which involved me having to remind her of a lot
that we did. Mostly random adventures like "I want cookies. Let's get
cookies" to much more. I even said that if she needs someone to have more
random adventures with, I'm up for it. Great night for me and a happy birthday
for her.
And then the random adventures started again on the 14th. Originally,
I had typed out in detail what we did, but it was running long. So I'll just
list out what we did over the course of 2 weekends. All days also had time to
just chill.
06.14 - West Oaks Mall, Memorial City Mall, Panda Express, 429,
dinner
06.15 - Bean Boozled
06.19 - Lakewood - Hope &
Faith/Love (Hillsong), Pink Berry,
Nachos
06.20 - Original OKRA Charity Saloon/FYP, 429 Homeless Donation, almost getting hit by a
car, Lakewood -
Hope & Faith/Love (Hillsong and service), Pho 24
06.21 - Shopping, 429, Applebee's
06.22 - Sally's, Mall, Phoenicia, Dinner, Hair Dye (the dark blue is too dark to see unfortunately)
06.27 - Talk
Living 7-10 minutes away helps with getting together to do
stuff. Coincidentally, we work about 10 minutes from each other as well. But we
had to pump the breaks on our adventures for a while as she has gotten busy
with church stuff. We both knew that was going to happen, but I'm looking
forward to the adventures starting back up again. It was probably good timing
since we wanted to squelch dating rumors (I know I've been asked, don't know
about her). My parents even questioned if we were dating since they saw her a
lot (we both have told them we weren't).
Another thing, my spiritual side has been reawakened. I'm not religious, but I do believe in things. My friend could tell that I had a spiritual side to me. That combined with going to church has definitely made me more emotional whether it's good or not.
Thing is, I just haven't interacted with anyone like that in
a long time. Doing random things, hanging out a lot, talking and texting on a
daily basis...I haven't done that with anyone in years. I don't even talk to my
close friends on a daily basis. So having reunited with her is great and I'm
glad she's back in my life (as a friend).
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- I wrote a post on my Facebook (06.12) about quitting as a
videographer. It had been something I thought about for a while now. I even
talked to a close friend before posting it just to get an opinion beforehand.
While he wasn't thrilled to hear it, he encouraged me to do what I needed to
do. I posted a few reasons why (there's a lot) I quit and did thank those who
supported me and were in any of my videos. Plus I linked 10 videos I am still
proud of so it's not like I can't watch any of them anymore.
One thing I was surprised by was the lack of response I got
from it (not to discredit those that did). But I chalk it up to not many
noticing my Facebook posts since I normally just post videos rather than type
out things. But it does speak to how the support was in my videographer career.
The important thing is that it is done. Only a big opportunity will ever make
me want to professionally do this again.
I did sell one of my video cameras, my Sony NEX-VG10 (last
video camera I bought back in 2011). The plan was to ask my coworkers first
before going to Facebook to see if anyone else was interested. Thankfully one
coworker was. I let him try it out for the weekend and he liked it. So he got
the friend discount which was almost half off plus an extra battery, memory
card, and carrying bag. I'm getting biweekly installments until it is paid off.
It felt good selling it and knowing it is getting more use out of it with
someone else. Will I sell more equipment? Maybe, we'll see.
- The World Cup does have a lot of the world talking. I'm
only keeping up with scores thanks to the desktop page of Twitter. At first I
wasn't rooting for any team in particular, but when Japan VS Colombia was
happening, I chose Colombia
and I'm sticking with them for sentimental reasons.
And speaking of Colombia, I'll be going to the
Colombian Festival (to celebrate Colombia's independence day) on July 20th with my friend/ex. She reminded me that we went
to one when we were dating. I vaguely remember it. She said it rained and we
left early. That jogged my memory a little. I'm glad she told me about it. I recently told her I missed Colombia. Maybe I should go back there some time.
- My Zotto Mola hat finally arrived on the 28th. I ordered
it May 1st. The online shop did say it would take a while, but I didn't think
it would take almost 2 months. I'm glad I finally have it though. It also came
with a free Running Man key chain.
- I finished watching Invincible Youth 2. It originally
aired in 2011, but I only saw a few episodes since some places weren't doing
great in their subbing. Not that I got the best subtitles with what I watched,
but at least I could see it.
Season 2 really could not live up to season 1. Not that it
was horrible, but they got new hosts, lost members, and they retooled the show
a couple times that it definitely wasn't what it used to be. My biggest take
aways from this season was that I like Bora more now and that Suzy is dorky and
awesome.
While we're on the subject of Korean variety shows, I'm also
watching We Got Married since Yura (Girl's Day) is on it. And of course I'm
still watching Running Man. Congratulations on 200 episodes.
- Last month I said my favorite 2NE1 song was Come Back
Home. That has changed to Gotta Be You. Come Back Home is still an awesome
song, but I think it's the rapping that makes me really like Gotta Be You.
And speaking of rapping, Hyomin's solo activities are
kicking off. I actually like Overcome more than Nice Body. I'm hoping she at
least performs Overcome a couple of times during her solo run.
Thank you for reading. Be healthy, be safe, be thankful, and
be loved.
Take care. DFTBA.
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